A few weeks ago, I sent an email to my online community sharing how there were a couple of really special people that had stood for my transformation almost 20 years ago and how that had made a difference in my life. I emailed those people, dedicated the article to them and thanked them for the role they had played on my journey of transformation. One of those people wrote back to me “correcting” my reference to the fact that this had happened 20 years ago. And I realized, she was right. I had only met her 15 years ago, not 20. But I do know that something had happened almost 20 years ago which is why the reference.
So, friends, I stand corrected. 20 years ago, it was not THEM who took a stand for my transformation, it was I that did.
In fact it was exactly June 5, 1992 when that happened. Next month it would be 21 years since I took a stand for transforming my life. A life that needed transformation desperately. After having spent 8 years prior to that in an environment of sexual abuse and incest, the only future I saw for myself was rotting in some brothel as a prostitue. I did not see any other possibility for myself. No career, no family or children. Who would want me? I was a piece of garbage. Why would anyone love me? I had no value. I was unworthy. I truly believed that and lived my life based on the belief that I was trash.
And then one day an encounter changed my life. I heard someone say that I had a power within me to change my destiny. And that the time to do it was not tomorrow but today. He said, I could have a better life, be safe and happy, but I had to make that decision and take a stand for myself. When I heard those words, I remember a fire being lit inside of me. He was right. I did have that power, I just didn’t realize it. I had it in me all along, I just needed to be in the right space to find it.
That conversation changed my life. Without that conversation I would not be where I am today helping others on their spiritual journey of transformation. I am grateful for my friend who wrote back questioning my “integrity” with my previous article because she helped me have a breakthrough. You see, to an extent, I was still living in the belief that I was not worthy by not acknowledging what I did for myself and the stand I took for my own journey of transformation. By only acknowedging the benevolent actions of others and the role they had played in my life I have allowed myself to stay in the shadows as though I had nothing to do with what I have acheived and accomplished in my life since that day.
I believe it’s time for me to acknowledge who I am and the being I have transformed into.
Now I see myself as a being with limitless possibilities for living my life powerfully. Within each of us lies the limitless potential to have unconditional love, forgiveness, healing and compassion for ourselves and others. On my own journey I have accomplished healing and reconciliation with the person that abused me. I not only have a relationship with him of love and peace but he is in my life and in the lives of my husband and chidren as well.
This transformation would not have been possible if I did not take a stand for myself.
Remember that although we may have people in our life to nudge us, give us tough love and “strongly suggest” we heal our past and embark on our journey of transformation, nothing, I repeat: NOTHING will become possible unless YOU take a stand for YOUR transformation.
So if you haven’t already, when will you take a stand for YOUR transformation? When will you stop letting the flashbacks and memories of your past continue to rob you of your present moment? When will you be ready to pause and honor yourself, to celebrate where you are in this very moment of your life? In this moment lies the entire Universe of possibilities. In this moment lies all the limitless potential that is within you, waiting to be released. This moment.
Are you ready?
My sacred affirmations for this moment are….
I am full of limitless possibilities
I am a divine being living a life of love and compassion
I take a stand for my transformation every day
I am a powerful being with the potential for unconditional forgiveness and healing
I am awesome!
Take a few moments to reflect on these questions and comment on the blog. Your insights could help another reader, so don’t hold back, share the love. Tell us what you think? What were you present to when you read this article? I can’t tell you how honored I am that you spent the time reading and sharing in this sacred space with me. You make a difference in this world, always remember that! Now don’t hold back, speak your truth! The Universe is listening…..!